early weekend strolls, minus the hangover

Alexa and I set off bright and early on Saturday morning to go to the Parnell French style farmers market.
I can't believe - of my two years living in Auckland.. that it is something I have not yet done.

Everything was as expected - loads of fresh bread and pastries, homemade chutneys, fresh fruit and veges, handpicked flowers and the smell of coffee everywhere.

Perfect!

La Cigale catered to our needs. Classical music and old rustic looking decor'... Two soy mochas, a fruit danish and a walnut and cinnamon roll.

Then we set on home - "Organic Coffee!"

Oh wonder what thats like.. Well, looks can be deceiving..

"it's difficult to think anything but pleasant thoughts while eating a homegrown tomato"

it would be better to say you don't even know me

Feeling like getting deep?

One can never really know what another person is feeling can they?

Unless each and every person opens up to each other, who knows what is getting them down! There is so much that people don't know about me, so many secrets and so much that is continually on my mind.

Things that I wish I was strong enough to confront others about.

Or tell someone exactly how I feel. About them. Or a situation.

Why do we do this?

Do we not want to be a burden on others?

Is it as simple as being scared of the reaction?

Not wanting to hurt feelings?

Personally, I think somethings are much easier being kept bottled up..

Graffiti wall by Elam Art School - I love street art.

"we tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing that we fear grows stronger"

best of friends can be the best of suprises

OMEGOS
Did some suprising over in Hamilton last night.. Ash and I hid in Ami's wardrobe.

I had such a great time with my girls. Reminising on old times. Singing loud in the car. Getting booth photos. Playing air hockey. Coffee and dessert.

Just doing whatever we do and having fun no matter what!

xx

Something I have been thinking about - really miss that feeling of being 'secure'.

Or always having someone there no matter what.

Difference is, I don't want it again. I don't want any of that emotional crap that comes with it. Thats the part that makes you so estatic that nothing else matters; but the same part that just makes you wanna die.. how can something so amazing, hurt you so much?

I don't think I will ever get into anything like that again. Its like, sometimes it would be a whole lot easier if it never happened in the first place.

I'll take just the physical side, and feel no feelings.

"if I hadn't met you, I wouldn't like you. If I hadn't liked you, I wouldn't love you. If I wouldn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do and I will"

it is just one of those things that you gotta pack up and throw away

My best friend is upset about a break up.

Hes the love of my life and it just hurts not being with him.

The strange thing is that I am in the same position and know exactly how shes feels.

EXACTLY

But.. I don't know what to say.

Because, yeah it does hurt. But life goes on and we move on, right?

Not feeling too flash after an epic night. It was illusioning. Really.

I'm stuck in Auckland for another week. Guess I can only try make it a little worthwhile by doing something thats good for me.

However, Alexa made cupcakes. And they are always so super cute. They can brighten up anyones day.

"america is an enormous frosted cupcake in the middle of millions of starving people"

hallucination. fallacy. phantasm. blunder. or. the trip.

The day is absolutely beautiful and everything is fresh and new.

Life is so l o n g and there is s o much time and very l i t t l e to do.

In two hours.. the clock didn't change. The digital clock stayed the same.

Just little snippets of conversation. Some were really inspiring things to say.

Her stomach seemed to come out with her top.

And it was icey c o l d. Her jacket was a massive luxury.

Wrapped in silk.

The seat was made of silk. The ground was silky.

If the music was something, it would be silk.

It was meaningful. It is real and gets inside.

Flicking in and out of eternity.

Talking is staticy. And really fast. Sounds like underwater.

"drugs may be the road to nowhere, but at least they're the scenic route"

i love love love our american bulldog

I whited out an old canvas this afternoon - waiting for it to dry at the moment..

"one word frees us from all weight and pain; love"

a passtime, like nothing else

Really old. Really ammature. Really emo.

Just a peice of practise work I did back in 2007.

"color is my day-long obsession, joy and torment"

this could possibly be one of the best feelings

I am officially on HOLIDAY!

I did an all nighter last night. Always worth it I say.

I wish I could say I went and done something totally out of it to celebrate.

But I didnt, havn't and wont.

I might do some painting tonight, if that counts for anything. I would like to see if I have any artistic ability left after my months of abandonment.

Auckland is still being a bitch and making the weather freezing! Feels like we are on top of a mountain.

Currently feeling: relaxed, unstressed, tired and excited.

Bring on motivation to do something worthwhile!

"do not protect yourself by a fence; but rather by your friends"

these summer days were the most careless

I miss summer and fun in the sun.

Playing cricket on the beach, tanning, drinking and BBQs.

Perving on the boys and surfing all day.

Currently feeling: annoyed, cold, helpless, tired, depressed.

"the best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up"

theres not much better than a coffee with laughs

Cute coffees :)

I cannot get over how cold it is today.. but the sun is out. One tick for the weather doing something right.

Oh, I have insomnia.

"For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness."

it is easy to ponder all day about the bringings of life

I spent the day with my Nana drinking cappuccinos and talking about life.

Pop got her this toy poodle. Cute!

"this is your life, and it is ending one minute at a time"